i cannot

Am I so blind that I cannot see.

Am I so deaf that I cannot hear.

Am I so dumb that I cannot speak.

I cannot I cannot I cannot I cannot

I am numb.

Winter is a blessing,

Winter brings me chill.

Winter is a friend who often disappears.

I know where I am,

But I feel so lonely.

I cannot I cannot I cannot I cannot

I do not fell anything.

alone

I feel broken

Like a toy used to play with

And now to destroy.

How long is a friendship?

Can it go on forever?

It seems like a dance in a circle,

No interruptions from jutting edges,

Then the song ends.

Everything just falls away.

All through my life I just wanted to love.

I need to love.

And I am losing my mind to darkness.

All I know is I might end up alone,

And I do not know why.