I want to be asleep and not have dreads of waking
I want to be free of the chains I put on myself
I want to live and enjoy your company
I want to make you happy
I want to smile and be genuine
I want to live life and not regret
I want to believe all the things I take for granted
I want to feel the light I speak so highly of
I want to feel the love I dreamed of
I want to feel calm and warm and whole
I want to break out of my mind and explore yours
I want to wake up and be vibrant
I want to stop being so self-righteous and moody
I want to just be free
I just want to be free of the barriers
I just want to stop my constraining chest from heaving
I just want to let it all out
I just want to cry
Why can't I just cry
I just want to be free from my own expectations
And I am so sorry
I am just so sorry that I was wrong all along
I am just so, so sorry that I was so broken
I am just so sorry that I am breaking piece by piece
And I have no clue what is wrong with me
I have no clue what to do
I have no clue about life
I have no clue, as I thought I did
And I feel like such a bitch and such wreck
And this doesn't make any sense
Nothing ever makes any sense
And I am just so sorry
