Saturday, November 27, 2010

You are always on my mind

Washing my face and feeling the cold
Of a morning left to unfold
My whispered feelings to the dark
Are nothing to you
Are nothing at all
Except for in my own thoughts
Where it grows and takes life
You are always on my mind

These situations and novelties
This life I concocted out of dreams
I saw the discolored lines of my heart
I saw the miscalculations
I wanted to be more than this
But my psychotic way is overrunning me
So I live inside my mind
You are always on my mind

Friday, November 26, 2010

Science of Certainty

Granted I left a thread of my brain behind
While working up the fabric and refining the lines
I didn't see the darkness creeping by the walls
I didn't seem to think that the matter was worth discussing
Didn't want to focus on the feeling of being blind

Keeping up the stock of smoldering dunes
That creep up in your nostrils
That sell on being crude
I wasn't yours for the taking but I gave myself up
I wasn't planning on this but my heart is wrapped in uncertainty
Disused and covered with crust

They took that selling point and they boiled it down to science
Saying that the ground was made to be solid but not solid
And they used my eyes as the prize for the answers
They used my every limb to figure out the chemistry
Behind the foreign institute that shattered all their lives

And I took up all their promises
I dealt with their stolen hands
Just to seek my desires and my purpose of this land
I didn't seek being human
Didn't seek to be all right
Just wanted to reach my resting place
My heaven and my origin
But this I had not planned

What is in a humans brain
What is in a child's hands
I would have known
I would have cared had I kept watch
If I could care enough to do so
If I was but more self-effacing

I would have known human nature to turn sour
To catch their fleeting crimes
To seek their every belief system
And unveil their uncertainties and lies
But my trust in the ignorant was blind
And my life was torn apart
by bloody hands and broken minds
Oh human nature
Oh human kind

Saturday, November 20, 2010

changes

I'll be watching for the signs
But the feeling of strength
And certainty
Is consuming my skin
Comforting instead of foreign
Now an understanding

Changing facets of the multi colored glass
That walled my mind in colors
Too bright and too breakable
Encased by the feeling
Of discomfort and uncertainty
It is gone
I can breathe