blinded

Don't mind me I am just bitter

Don't care for me cause I'm a quitter

Nothing matters if it's unpleasant

Open your eyes

Tell me what do you see

I know no difference from Light to darkness

Teach me

What is the world like in your small head

What is perfect

Tell me what you see when you wake up

Is it all fake

Is this for real

Am I mistaken

What is a perfect world

I do not see one on this earth

Teach me to feel

Teach me to be human

Teach me to be loved

I know no difference from this state that I am in

To the place in your head were happiness begins

how can you feel so joyful inside

When nothing is working in my mind

When everything is beautiful

But it is so delicate

I am just bitter

So don't love me

Just turn your back

And you won't see

The world sucks

Why do I have to live my life the way I do. The faces that I love are no where. I want so much to be happy. Everyone wants me to be happy. But I cannot. Am I to blame? Am I so shallow and so stupid and so pitiful and so lost? Am I that helpless? I feel as if everything I do I do for no one. Not even myself. I feel like I am living a life just to keep on moving and breathing. What is that? That is not a life. That is nothing. If you keep on doing what you have been since you were born, what is the use of your pointless life. I want to have some excitement. I want something to happen, anything. I know I might regret that, but why can't I live for something just once.

Love letter to myself

Don't stand over there

It's not fair that I should be alone

You are cold, days grow cold too

And I'm not really here

Do you see me

Do you feel my touch

Do you want to?

I am afraid no one does

I am scared

I am cold

Don't take back your words

I'm afraid they are the only ones that matter

Don't take back your sorrow

I'm afraid it's the only feeling

In my head

Days are gray

Days die

Days come and go

Why can't I

Summer is hotter in my head

Winter is a constant reminder

I am scared that I am gone

Sometimes it doesn't even matter

I am not who I used to be

I am cold

Don't take back your words

Don't take back your words

Don't take back your words

They are the only things that matter.