My Prayer

I pray for the silence inside of me

To grow as a large wave

And be louder than sound

More piercing than a yell

Tender as a string of kisses

I pray for the silence to bring me peace

And open my eyes

To the small sounds of the worthy

And the harsh sounds to be avoided

I pray for this silence to save me

And carry me in its breath

To be free of what I no longer choose to understand

And rise above being human

To being a spirit surrounded and swathed

In a beautiful golden warmth

I pray for faith in silence

And glory above hate

A silent love

A silence without desire and pain

I pray for silence

You've hurt me

I don't care if it doesn't make sense anymore

I'm tired of trying to make excuses for you

Trying hard not to put the blame on myself

Like I've done too many times

You need to know that it's also your fault

You're also to blame

You need to know your pretend concern for me

Drives me away

You need to know how much you've hurt me

You've hurt me

You've hurt me

If I was solid

I'm trying to believe in something I can't feel

Trying to believe in something I can't see

I want so bad to reach out and touch you

I want so bad to reach out and feel your skin

If I was solid

If I was whole

I'd take you into my arms

I'd hold you still

I'd feel the tears

That I've held in

New

Oh how I was born strangely

With severed limbs and severed heart

Oh how I looked in your eyes

And saw you there

Oh how I was born silently

With severed knowledge and fragmented logic

Oh how I looked in your eyes

And saw you there

I am the mother

I am the father

I am the earth

I was shadows

I was darkness

I was wind

I swirled around your faces

I saw into your skin

I saw into my own

And that’s where I begin

Good morning new sun

I loved your faces

I loved you

I loved you

Good morning