I live in golden arches

I live here in golden arches

I fear my death

So I climb a mountain

But still no rest

I live in golden arches

Were suns come to rest

I fear my sanity

For I have no test

I live in golden arches

Abundance is abundant

I fear my weakness

But still I indulge it

I live in golden arches

Were my secrets can hide

If only I had them

Forever I abide

no hero, only human

hanging over the ground

hard and rigid

reaching out

waiting to be forgiven

sun goes in mid flight

what does it take to kill tonight

crazy and wicked

severed hands and feet

liefs to bid

hell gives no heat

i am your lord

i give no peace

what does it take to hold on tight

in the midst of this

the thrill of fight or flight

you cannot beat this

it takes over your mind

what does it take to feel alright

when you have no choice

what do you choose

picking sides

only to lose

or believing a side

that will surely kill you

i give no reason

i give my time

i give it all

and in due time

i will collapse

but it is better there

where i know nothing

where i can disappear

if i give in

if i give up

what will become of us

Can't

I am staying whole

While feeling bleached

The feeling cold

The feeling deep

Stark white

Shifting feet

I want this

But I can't see

And I can't breathe

I want this

But I can't reach

And I can't believe

close to

Just soft, just living here right now

Just whole, and breathing and right

I can cry to want

But I can only see what might be

And what I don't have

This is where I want to be

Hand in hand

And feeling too

So what is it that I know not

The feeling of this feeling lost

All I know is what could be

Holding on and holding tight

Warm and close

And feeling right

To just be loved

Without restrictions

Or regulations

To just know that I am safe

So alone

So wanting

So frightened

Feeling forgotten

Simple be simple

Hello world I am a bubble

That magnifies all faults

And I sit here and I weep

For what I know as false

Hello world I am a bubble

That magnifies all our glories

And I sit her and I weep

For what I know as false

Hello world, I give you patience

And yet you continually move faster

Not caring where you run to

As long as you are running

Simple be simple

Be kind and unsure

And when you grow older

Grow wiser for course

And if you die young

Be okay with the world

Hello world I am a bubble

In the midst of your tribulations

I grant you some peace

But I don't grant you courage

Hello world I am a bubble

Of soft spoken vows

That make you grow strong

But make you weary of how

Hello world, I give you choice

But you continue to be suspended

In arguments, picking, choosing sides

Not caring what is in your own mind

Simple be simple

Be kind and unsure

And when you grow old

Grow wiser for course

And if you die young

Be okay with the world

It might seem trivial but I like to think we are pointless

It feels like our sleeves

Are dripping with the tension

But we don't give a fuck

As we run into this new dimension

And their noses were stuck up

But we didn't give a care

As we followed them on down

Their crystal stairs

They have not a clue

Sit there and pretend

I have pity

But not enough to act on it

And they line up on the walls

Waiting for their call

But they don't see the truth

They only see their greed

And still I follow suit

Trying to act cool

As I watch them in their thrones

Pretending to be civil

With a blank white wall

Because honey we can sit here and pretend

But we can always run

And run and run

They can't run

They can't hide

They are no better than a child

No where to go

Just whining and begging

For something as useless

As a show on a telly

And I can run and run

we are broken

we are broken

we can't see

it's plain and simple

just let it be

it's just left to its own devices

just let it be

it is plain and simple

like you and me

we are broken

we have no use

but we still think

and that's were it begins

and we are still alive

but broken non the less

living as the tide

but the tide was put to rest

we are broken

and we can't be

but here we are

plain to see

standing by the open air

waiting for something

someone

anything

we are broken

and we just let it be

what use is love

if you don't love me

and what use is it

to sit and wallow

when all you are

is plain and hollow

you are simple

we are broken

What is it to kill

Right and wrong

Wrong and right

You have been taught these things

In a fit of plea

To help you on your way

To reach your destiny

Your heart is kind

You can only do

What you find to be just

But what is right and wrong

What if there is no good and evil

Just what is and what isn't

What if the world was just an oasis

Away from space

Where you would float an eternity in

And when you became bored

You simply reached down

And planted yourself here

On earth

To take a life

To make a mistake

To fake and to lie

To cry and to die

What does it feel like to live

And keep on preaching the things

You know to be good

But knowing that nothing is pure

And realizing

One must sometimes pick a lesser evil

Or a greater good

Even if the consequences are misunderstood

How does it feel to live

And to breathe air filled with blood

And know that you could never

Could not ever

Do this to another

Like so many have

Even if it means risking it all

Risking it all for the sake of what is right

What if the stars are mocking you

Just laughing at your tears

What if you have only been making a fool of yourself

Through all of these years

Of suffrage

And pain

With nothing to gain

But a sense of self

What if all this is a playing ground

To watch you sleep

And watch you die

But you know

You could never give in

Never kill

Never fall ill to destruction

And it rips at your soul

To know so many do

And do it willingly

For the pleasure

Of all the pain

Just to watch it rain

With blood

And there are those

Who watch them die

And cannot see

They are blind

To what is true

And what is pure

And with there vengeful tears

They fight

And kill

And do what they will to seek revenge

Thinking they know what is right

And maybe they are

Because what is a man

Who kills a man

Who kills a man

Because what is a wrong

Gone unpunished

But still you do not turn into the want

Because to take another life

Would break you

Does this make you weak

Or does this make you strong

How can this end

When it has gone on for so long

Like a cycle of grief

Forever slaying a beast

That when killed is reborn in another

You foolish little girl

You silly little thing

You act like you don't know where to be

You tainted little beast

You go around like a pendant on a string

You tiny deadly wasp

Is this what you think life is about

You eat up everything

Like it belongs to only you

Well heres to you

Who think I am a fool

I don't care any other way

Just as long as you stay away

You foolish little girl

Like a cat who only walks

To get you to the door

Whining like a child

Just to be let out in the cold

And find it to be rash

And want right back inside

I know exactly who you are

I have seen your kind

You who know no boundaries

Except those of your own

I pity you

Like time pities the innocent

And you pity me

Like a lion pities an antelope

But it makes no difference

I would rather live alone

And locked away

Than live inside your head

Your rapid spreading fire

Is running on oxygen

That has been cycled way to much

And breathed much too long

It is running out of air

And your fire is too dirty

And your fire is too hot

And your fire is left to putrefy

Guardians Fool

And we break on through the darkness

And we told them all our fears

But we didn't get the chance

To shed all of these tears

Because they keep on flowing

Even after all these years

And yet they don't falter

They are a constant

They are our alter

And our shadows let us be

As they traveled through the dark

They left us hollow

But they left us our hearts

And we don't go a moment

Without thinking it cruel

That all that we loved

Just made us all fools

And our fates were left undetermined

But we settled them here

We were just left to decay

And bury our fears

But we don't have the choice

And we just had to choose

To live on and on

Till we have lost all to lose

And our minds were left numb

And our hands remained idle

But we can't blame a single one

And we can't turn our backs to the sun

And our faces were harsh

And the smiles were cruel

But we got out of bed

And we left them the rest

And we all followed the rules

And when we thought we would cave

And leak into dust

We fought our way through

Just to comfort the rest

And we believed we were good

And we believed we were fine

But we left the world empty

Of all our damn time

And we begin to hope

That we were all wrong

And the song that we spun

Was a song way too long

That we shared what we could

And we thought what we thought

But it was all for nothing

And we were all left to rot

Just left to rot

wasted

Jam on a paper plate

Shapes off the interstate

The faces that you love to hate

The stars that collide in place

The sun that shines on

Even when you never notice

The boy that calls to you

Ever wanting more

The doors to an empty place

Teeming with life

But longing for liveliness

The creatures in the garden

And under your bed

Are dead

The books read that do not give

The tales they tell

Just to get a laugh

The bridges you burn

The sky that burns too

The family you lost

But has not lost you

The lost thoughts you used to have

The ideas that sprung are clogged

The dreams you dream

Do not mean a thing

The hands you have are bleeding

While still dry

The eyes you have are crying

Behind an emotionless facade

The people you know

But don't really know

The teachers that teach

Not one thing that you learn

But the things that you absorb

Then forever let go

Never to be thought of again

The things that you say

The things that you write

The things that you think

Don't mean a thing

The settling rush

The flowers you pass

The sidewalks you walk on

But you never really walked on

The things that you saw

But you never really saw

Is this how it is

Is this how you want to live

Expecting no more from life

While they expect nothing more from you

Is this how you will always be

Just waiting for the next day to rest

But never looking back

Never having one regret

For all the wasted time

Gather them

I see the sun

But it is weary

And all you loved

Is standing next to me

While your away

I am to stay

Forever stay

Gather them home

Take them away

I need them no more

They want you to stay

With them

Always

With them

Speak of the light

Speak of the dark

They are so very believable

They strike a chord

Forever to store

And they call

You to make the decision

I am so cold

Waiting for them

I am so stone like

I stand on this ground

But I don't feel anything

I stand on this ground

You went away

Like an animal in fright

You flew away

In the dead of the night

And all you love

Stands next to me

Carry them home

They don't belong to me

Stay in my head

What if I told you a secret

That you could repeat

And it was so sweet and hopeful

What if I repeated conversations in my head

That I thought we would have

That I thought we would give

We can grow up

Get away from this town

I don't know why

But I can't get you out of my head

And if that shows

I hope it does

Please think of me

And I think it is crazy

And I am a little ahead of myself

But I can't get you out of my head

i was never for you

If I had a chance to get this pass

I would tell you all the things I feel

If I had a chance to make you cry

I think that I would take that

If only it made you see

You are so rash

You can't forget the past

If I had a chance to get this pass

I would tell you all the things I can't stand

All the things that make you so

So resistible

Maybe I am biased

Maybe I am on a hiatus

For breaking hearts

But I will take that chance

If I had a chance to get this pass

I would tell you the things that make me happy

And the way of my world

You just don't see

You are stuck in your own drama

And I can't count on you

To help me when I am dreaming

And this will never work

I don't have a chance

To help you see

I try and I try

But you won't learn anything from me

You won't understand

And I can't take that chance

Because ultimately

You revolt me

Is that wrong

I don't have a chance

To help you believe

In the world

So I can't make you change

And I don't want to

Because you won't learn anything from me

You won't take lessons to heart

You won't understand the art of the world

You won't see the things I am

You will never see the things you are

As clearly as the world does

I don't have a chance

I never had a chance

I can never help you

So get over me

Like I never got over you

Because I was never for you

And I never will be

This is how it ends

human today is so strange

Making a change is so hard

And so easy

So very confusing

What do you want me to think

I will think anything you say

Even though I want my own mind

And I want to make my own decisions

I will believe anything you say

Why should this divide us

Insecurities are driving humanity away

You will believe everything I say

Is that how it is supposed to be

What if you looked into my mind

And saw I was just me

I want to breathe your air

And be your friend

I want to follow you until the end

I want to be okay

You can make me okay

Please make me okay

voices, voices, voices

Expecting and wanting

I cannot feel

I cannot think

What do you want

What do you need

Did you ever solve your own problems

Did you ever think I only had my own interest at heart

I don't care

You know best

I am not my own

But I am your servant

I am your bride

And your faithful vice

Take me

I am yours completely

I can use you

And I can abuse you

I can not do this to you

But how could I have your life in my hands

How could I make your decisions

When I need to make my own

Do you see your foolishness

Do you see your faults

You cannot learn from me

You must learn from yourself

But you are so wise

And you advise and advise

How can I turn away

When I know

You have the best lessons

How could I knowingly turn my back

On the one thing keeping me sane

Believe me when I say I don't want to

But you brought this on yourself

I wanted to be their for you

While you were their for yourself

But you are to far gone

And you are turning me insane

I must turn my back on you

And leave

Did you ever think of that

Did you ever think of how this affects me

Think for yourself and you will see

How could you

I cry and I cry

What do you want me to do

I cannot live without you

How can I earn you back

How can I make you see

You mean the world to me

How can I survive

I will devote my life to you

And try to make you see

You are everything

And I wait and wait

And I begin to love you less and less

And this anger is burning

And I hate you more and more

I need you

But you walked out the door

And I am talking to myself

In this empty space

How could you just walk away

When I count on you for so much

How can I make you see

And I take your advice

Except the advice you gave me

When you said

I should turn my back to you

I thought you needed me

Like I need you

I thought you were my life

And that you enjoyed my service to you

How can I learn to understand what you mean

When you are not here to help me

What am I supposed to do

It has been so long

Since I listened to you

And I hate you

I hate you so much

I must find some one else to love

Some one else to trust

Some one else to guide me

And the cycle begins

And this is how thinking ends

But not everyone is so kind

They use and abuse

How should you know how to get out

When this was all you ever wanted?

I travel this imperfect path

Say it isn't so

That the winds are too in place

The embodiment of your stance

Is so insignificant

Is this where you are supposed to stand

Is this what is rightfully yours

The winds mock you

When they have never mocked you before

So if they are fixed at this place

And they are perfectly aligned

And if this is perfect

I scoff at perfect

I call its bluff

I wouldn't serve it

Even if it were enough

Enough to get by

Enough to get through

I travel this path

Uneven and jagged as it is

And I do it happily