Sunday, July 31, 2011

Fucks: none

Seven days a week
Every day I'm wasting my time
Every day I'm shouting inside
And I don't give a fuck

Twenty-four hours a day
I think of you
And I get confused
And I don't give a fuck

Life like invisible ink
If you can't see it
There is no point
And I don't give a fuck

Maybe if I give meaning
To something I don't see meaning in
I can't lie to myself
And I don't give a fuck

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Faces

There was a girl who loved to read
And often thought a lot
She saw the world with pickled eyes
And a widening heart
All she had she had gained
From the love she shared with places
And the faces
Of the small town she lived in
And wanted nothing more
Nothing less
Than someone of her own to call home
To know how truly she was blessed

When she was older
And knew of grown up things
She saw the world through judging eyes
And sleeping, slipping feet
She saw how shallow hearts hurt her
And shriveled her own smaller every day
She finally found someone
But his love came much too late
And she wasted away all her time
With a bottle and a pill

There once was a man
That loved a woman very very much
But she was growing weary
Of the way he talked
So he took her in his arms
With her tears seeping to the floor
And he kissed her were it hurt
And then loved her no more
Walking away from a woman
Too in need of what she could not touch
And it hurt him so deeply
He wasted away all his time
With a bottle and a pill
When finally he realized
How pointless life would be
If all he did was sleep
And then he forgave himself
For what he once could be

Then one day
A little girl came
And took the woman by the hand
And she cried
For everything she had
Her mother was a nurse
And her father won the war
And she couldn't quite fathom
Why he won it for
So the woman picked her up
And told her a story
Of how she walked the streets
Her love in blazing glory
How she let her blindness of the world
Tear that love apart
Instead of loving people
For the best they had to give
And that little girl stopped crying
And told the woman that
It's good to feel so sad
Because when you are happy
That sadness makes it deeper
And the woman saw the world
With starry eyes

Monday, July 25, 2011

Friday, July 22, 2011

I love you

I love you
I don't want to say anything else
About the fact of it
I don't want to see anything deeper
Just the sound of it

I love you
More and more
Less and less
Waves I guess
The land changes too
Your face changes too
Mine too
Ours too

I love you
Like nothing from a simile
I'm tired of things
That make thinking
So easy now
I just do

I love you
Wouldn't it seem
That you too
Have no reasoning

I love you
I like the way it sounds
The way it feels
The way
That way
Yeah, that way

I love the thought of loving
Too
I do
So
When
Does
It
Become
Real
Your eyes are so cold underneath
My eyes feel so steep
And I don't want any of it
Any more right now

The leaves are falling to the grass
To the shallow waters of the dirt
To the small people underground
It's all unsound

Tonight
I would have done anything
To not feel
Like I don't feel at all

Because
Because
Because
Of all this damn repetition

And I have nothing
And
And
And

So give me the package
You came to deliver
You came to leave
It all

So give me the feeling
Of not seeing
Of not hearing
Of not getting the whole picture

So give me anything
To show me
I'm not doing this to myself
I'm doing this to myself

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Ghost

Gingerly now touch the frozen water
With a flick of your tongue
And a swish of your skirt
We welcome the smile
Of self indulgence
As you break the ice with your
Sharp little tooth and nail
We welcome the dark spattered kingdom

I was waiting for the dusk to come
So I could wash my wishes clean
And bring on all my severed dreams
That make me who I am
I was waiting for the dusk to come
So I could sleep in nothing
But the dark

And I grow weary now
Of my own impatience
For something I can't see properly
I grow weary of this slowness
The wretchedness of speed
Of time in all it's functioning
And wish the death of day would bring
This soiled frame of mind

I am the ghost
The ever living
Breathing ghost
That you call
Oh so benevolently
I am the evil
Sickening
Quickening
Bakery full of
The seven seas
The skies of thieves
I am the ghost
Of love
I am the ghost
Of love

I am the ghost
Of something
Left undone
Something
Meant
But never won
I am the ghost
Of love