I know

You don’t have to tell me you’re disappointed, I already know.

You don’t have to punish me, I already learned.

You don’t have to love me anymore, but somehow I know you do.

I feel so stupid because I don't know if I can change.

do I have the will power? Do I want to live this way?

I hate this, I hate myself.

I know I do not hate, I am just sad.

I failed.

At everything I have ever done.

And right now it feels fine to be sad, to feel nothing at all.

It kind of scares me, but somehow I know I can change.

Somehow I know I cannot.

I am just wilting away.