The night

I remember when I was just a few years younger

When I would feel so lost inside myself

How that one night lying on the floor

In a sweaty pair of flannel pants

I wore for the occasion

Just to feel comfortable as I laid and tried to sleep

And then my restless mind couldn't take it

So I wandered through that church

And I would begin to think of you

How I was willing you with my mind to notice me

Willing you to raise from your slumber

Out to the room I was in

So that we could occupy the same space together

And hold on to this shared something

Just laying in the night

How I wished with all my might

Just for you to know

This warmth in my chest

Felt ten times more than wonderful

And it was all due to my fondness for you

I couldn't help myself for feeling sad

As the impossibilities of you

Becoming tethered to my need

And reaching out

Became apparent

And I knew it would be a long time too

If it ever was to happen

I didn't know it yet

But that was the night I fell in love

And I know you fell a long time ago too

So I tried to sleep

Never knowing the change in me so deep

Was starting