Making a change is so hard
And so easy
So very confusing
What do you want me to think
I will think anything you say
Even though I want my own mind
And I want to make my own decisions
I will believe anything you say
Why should this divide us
Insecurities are driving humanity away
You will believe everything I say
Is that how it is supposed to be
What if you looked into my mind
And saw I was just me
I want to breathe your air
And be your friend
I want to follow you until the end
I want to be okay
You can make me okay
Please make me okay
voices, voices, voices
Expecting and wanting
I cannot feel
I cannot think
What do you want
What do you need
Did you ever solve your own problems
Did you ever think I only had my own interest at heart
I don't care
You know best
I am not my own
But I am your servant
I am your bride
And your faithful vice
Take me
I am yours completely
I can use you
And I can abuse you
I can not do this to you
But how could I have your life in my hands
How could I make your decisions
When I need to make my own
Do you see your foolishness
Do you see your faults
You cannot learn from me
You must learn from yourself
But you are so wise
And you advise and advise
How can I turn away
When I know
You have the best lessons
How could I knowingly turn my back
On the one thing keeping me sane
Believe me when I say I don't want to
But you brought this on yourself
I wanted to be their for you
While you were their for yourself
But you are to far gone
And you are turning me insane
I must turn my back on you
And leave
Did you ever think of that
Did you ever think of how this affects me
Think for yourself and you will see
How could you
I cry and I cry
What do you want me to do
I cannot live without you
How can I earn you back
How can I make you see
You mean the world to me
How can I survive
I will devote my life to you
And try to make you see
You are everything
And I wait and wait
And I begin to love you less and less
And this anger is burning
And I hate you more and more
I need you
But you walked out the door
And I am talking to myself
In this empty space
How could you just walk away
When I count on you for so much
How can I make you see
And I take your advice
Except the advice you gave me
When you said
I should turn my back to you
I thought you needed me
Like I need you
I thought you were my life
And that you enjoyed my service to you
How can I learn to understand what you mean
When you are not here to help me
What am I supposed to do
It has been so long
Since I listened to you
And I hate you
I hate you so much
I must find some one else to love
Some one else to trust
Some one else to guide me
And the cycle begins
And this is how thinking ends
But not everyone is so kind
They use and abuse
How should you know how to get out
When this was all you ever wanted?
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