I am alive

Oh how my soul is fated to these woes

But it's stupid and it's childish

And these things are harmful to me

But I don't have to feel a thing

And the reason for my youth

Is so that I can be alive

Don't I want to be alive

I can spend the rest of my life exploding in my intellect

But can't I just feel

Can't I just recollect the things that make me smile

Can't I love someone outside my mind

And feel a touch

And be alive

Be alive

Be alive

Keep tellin' myself that I can't make

That I don't get it

That I'm not getting it right

But can't I see the art in me

It doesn't have to be the same

And can't I see that nothing else

Is to blame for my false incompetence

So they can watch my difference grow

And maybe they could become alive in it

I am not so young

Not so quick

That I don't acknowledge the state I'm in

When I'm depressed

And I can feel that it can creep

But for now I'll reap what I sow

And open up a textbook

And complete a work

And go to school

And face the world

But I am happy in this

And I can be alive in this

Do you see my fingers as they fly against the keyboard

Do you see my mind whirling

Do you see the glint in my eyes

My mind is youthful and my eyes are old

My body is youthful and my blood is old

Do you see these thing become me

I am not so that I am not

I am so that I can see the world

With calculating eyes

And be okay to rejoice once or twice

Just because I'm young

Just because I'm alive