I don't want to breathe

Just breathe just breathe

I don't want to breathe

I want to be the air

And flow into everything

Become something beyond me

I don't want to walk into the storm

I want to be the storm

I want to be the stars and the planets

And the complex atoms

I don't want to be tethered down

By earthly thoughts and situations

My body is caging me

Constricting me

My brain limits me

I can only speak

But how can I conceptualize anything

Across language

I am language

And how can I see a thing

When I am it

I want to transcend demensions

transcend time

How could I own a thing

When I know it

Don't want to contemplate these things

Understand these things

Don't want to look at things

And be so constricted

In god we trust

I want to trust god

But I don't trust we

It is a merging of things

That cannot be merged

They are seprate

I'm not we

If I trust god

I am god

And god becomes

But god is simple

Believed by minds

That are limited

And so we become

And I am not god

You believe in this

And I believe in an I

That became a we

I am lost

I am meloncholy

I am we

I don't want to breathe

I want to be the air

But my brain makes it so

Impossible can stare me down

And kill me

thought by thought

Breath by breath